"Every life...

Wow its been a long time since i last updated.

Ill be turning 18 in two months exactly!!!! Not much has been going on. Me and Chris have been going out for almost 16 months. Had two competitions for paramount. Got 2nd place for the one on saturday. School has been boring as usual. O-M-G!! Valentines day was boring but the next sunday was awesome. Chris took me out to dinner. We went to olive garden and then i got 3 stuffed animals, a heart shaped pillow and a ton of candy!

For winter break i didnt do much. Monday i went over Chris house and played with a puppy. Tuesday I think i did the same thing and then hung out with Alysha when i got out of class. Wednesday had band practice. I dont think i did anything thrusday but i cant remember. Friday woke up and went prom dress shopping with Mike and Chris. I didnt buy one though but i think i found the one. Then went over Brittanys house for her 18th!! bday party. Saturday had competition then went out to dinner with the family. Today i went to church. Hung out with Chris and he bought me ice cream. Brittany came over and did the math with me.

Nothing has been going on. Just been thinking a lot. Next Tuesday im going to Eastern to register for my classes next fall!

[ ] 1. we love axe body spray
*eeew.
[ ] 2. we're as afraid of you as you are of us

[x] 3. we try to impress you most of the time

[x] 4. we flirt a lot if we like you

[ ] 5. we flirt a lot. period.

[ ] 6. the only things we like more than you are shoes

[x] 7. we dont understand "guy talk"

[x] 8. we LOVE hugs

[x] 9. we hate it when you're ignorant

[x] 10. we're not that girly all the time

[ ] 11. we hate hardcore action movies

[ ] 12. we giggle 24/7

[x] 13. we are scared of almost anything

[x] 14. we don't always like the "tall dark and handsome" guy

[ ] 15. AIM is our life =)

[x] 16. you see our myspace layout?

[x] 17. we are self concious

[x] 18. our personalities change in high school
when you stop being fake

[ ] 19. we have celebrity crushes

[ ] 20. we're scared of clowns

[x] 21. and we're scared of the dark

[X] 22. and we're scared of spiders

[x]23. we LOVE horror movies.

[x] 25. we sometimes take things a lot more seriously then we should

[ ] 26. we run around our house in tank tops and our underwear

[x] 27. during sleep overs, we talk about the guys we'd go out with.......and the guys we are going out with......and we also talk about the guys we've gone out with

[x] 28. we're not very athletic ---

[xx]29. we trust you more than most of our girl friends

[ ] 30. we are conceited, we just don't like to admit it

[x] 31. we cover ourselves in foundation -

[x] 32. no matter how nice we are, we CAN be brats

[xx] 33. we LOVE being scared

[x] 34. cuddling is our specialty

[x] 35. we love cars

[x] 36. we hate a lot of people

[ ] 37. we cat fight -

[x] 38. we scream when we're mad (or excited)

[ ] 39. we squeal when we break a nail -

[ ] 40. we BREAK things when we're mad

[x] 42. the food in expensive resturaunts always tastes better

[x] 43. bubble baths soothe us

[ ] 44. when we dont know what to say on the phone, we sigh
or just get off the phone

[x] 45. we CAN BE serious people

[ ] 46. our hair is part of who we are

[x]47. we can eat a lot

[ ] 48. we hate cartoons

[x] 49. our phones are one of our best friends

[ ] 50. we love the color pink

I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW!!! Im going to the movies and dinner with my boy!

Wow its been ages since i last updated so whats new with everyone. Anybody got plans for New Years Eve?


So much has been going on. It was mine and Chris' one year and also our 13 months cause it takes me so long to update. For our one year he gave me this really pretty bracelet with the dates of our first kiss and the day he asked me out engraved on it. He took me to go and see Harry Potter at midnight!!! And he made me dinner that saturday night which was the sweetest thing ever. I gave him a Zippo that had engraved Happy Anniversary on it. For our 13 month we spent it with his family at their Christmas party. For Christmas he gave a DIAMOND PROMISE RING!!! O-M-G its so beautiful and it was so expensive and its so pretty and omg a diamond really does take your breath away.


My brother came home for Christmas and i got to finally see my niece. She is so cute i didnt want them to leave. Sarah (his wife!) is the nicest person ever she got me the cutest wallet and great smelling bath stuff. They only got to stay for a week and he probally wont be able to come back up until July so i guess thats when ill be having my Grad party.


My grandma also died. That was probally the most hardest thing i had to go through. I miss her so much and i want her back. The funeral was so nice and there were so many people there. She would of loved it. Christmas day was by far the hardest day. People kept talking about her and it makes it so hard not to cry. I wish she would of never left me. When i got the ring all i wanted to do was to drive to see her so i could show her it but i couldnt. It killed me because i knew she would of loved it and been happy for me.


R.I.P grandma 12/4/05 I wish you would of never left me.

I got a job!!!

I work at Kmart woot! Im a cashier. Oh yea! I get to work with Mike.

Life is unfair...





You will be missed Curtis. We love and miss you.

Im so sick of it. I cant stand not ever being happy anymore. Finally when i am happy my mom or dad goes and ruins it and im back to my sad deprssive self. Im so sick of crying myself to sleep night after night. Im sick of not being able to make my parents proud of me no matter what i do. Im sick of being ignored and made fun of by people who i think care about me. Im sick of thinking that all i want to do is die. Im just so sick of everything and all i want to do is kill myself.

Havent updated in a while so i figured i should. Not much has been going on. I got a car!!!! I still dont have a job so im only aloud to drive it school and band things so i get to drive a lot lol. Went with Brittany today to go job hunting. Lots of fun. She tried to make a right onto south bound gratiot it was funny, good thing she realized you couldnt turn cause its a one way. That so would of been interesting. Tomorrow im going with Ken, Chris, Brittany, and hopefully Sarah if we can get her to go to a haunted house. Im also going with Brittany to pick up her dad from the airport. Thats going to fun. Hope we dont get lost. Saturday is my last football game, tear. Not really. Marching band hasnt been fun this year and i cant wait until its over with. Halloween is coming up and i cant wait. I still dont know if im going to a party or what. I need to figure this out. Monday was mine and Chris 11 month anniversary. I got him the family guy season 1 and 2 dvds. My mom is leaving next week to go down to see my niece. I want to go but its good that im getting away from my mom she is driving me nuts. I want to get out of here so bad. Cant wait until next year. Ill be off at eastern doing what i want and partying a hell of a lot.



Curtis your in our prayers, we miss you, get well soon.

I dont know how much longer i can deal with this...

OMG!!!! I GOT INTO EASTERN!!!!!!

OMG!!! IM AM AUNT!!!!



Homecoming is in 5 days. Im so excited for it. I hope its fun. My brother and his wife had their baby. Shes so cute. Her name is Taylor Elizabeth Kew. I dont get to see her until Christmas though. It sucks. Well i dont feel like updating anymore right now.

So yea this day sucks. Had seminar practice today. It started to rain and we had to stay out there and play the whole show until we could go in. It sucked. Then had college today and it was so boring. Alysha feel asleep. Then i came home and did my math. Didnt understand alot of it but i dont care as of right now. Then i was talking to my mom and made up the excuse that chris needed help with math and she said he can come here. But of course it was a lie so i wont be seeing him today. Im so sick of being treated like a little kid. Im never alowd out. If my mom doesnt let me go to the cider mill saturday i swear to god im going to kill myself. Friday and Saturday i have tag day and i dont want to do it. God this year sucks so far. Or maybe its just the day i dont know. All i want to do right now is curl up in a ball and die. But oh well everyone has a bad day.

So yea does anyone have homecoming plans? Im trying to think of stuff to do.



This year has been interesting so far. I finally got my internet back after my dad crashed my computer. Ive been so stressed lately and this is the only night i havent had homework so im enjoying it. I feel like poo and im assuming its from the lack of sleep and stress. Saturday is mine and Chris 10 month. Hopefully he can come to my cousins bday party and we can do something afterwards. I cant wait until homecoming. I hope its awesome and I love my dress and i hope i look beautiful for chris. He has done everything for me and has kept me sane. I dont know what i would do without him. Im filling out my college apps tonight. I really hope i get into Eastern.

I cant do this anymore. All i want to do i die right now. Screw the world and everyone.

There have been so many things going on lately. Lots to update and lots to think about.


I went to band camp last week. My last one. Tear. Im going to miss it there lol. It was so much fun. Monday we had the scavenger hunt. It was so much fun. Tuesday we had free time and i did whatever i dont remember what exactly. Wednesday we had a dance and i went with mark. That was fun dancing with him and the girls. I cant wait for homecoming. Thursday night we had skit night and then free time till 11. I hung out with mark afterwards and he was teaching me how to wrestle. I was so close to taking him down. Well not really but i like to pretend that i was lol. Then at about 1 am me, Kristin, Mary, and Kristen all snuck out of out cabins and tp the scafholding ( i dont know how to spell it). Justin found us but told us we could do it because Kristen told him that we were out practicing 8 to 5 so we had to do that afterwaeds. LOL. It was so much fun and i got like 2 hours of sleep that night. Friday was the last day. Road the bus home with mark, that was fun and quite interesting. Had the first football game and of course we lost but the band rocked. Yesterday i went to lil Daves to say good bye because hes leaving for the army tomorrow. OMG!! My brother got married. Im so happy for him. I cant wait until i get to see my niece Taylor.

School starts tuesday and i dont want to go. Im so excited that im a senior. Its weird though but totally awesome.



There have been so many things going on and i feel that i dont have anyone to talk to. No one understands what im going through. Its tearing me up inside and i dont know what to do. Im lossing my best friend and i dont know what to do. Do i keep putting up with everything or just say screw you. I dont know what to do. Its also my senior year. Do i want to go and live it up or not. I dont know.

I need to get out of here and on my own. I need space but i dont want it. I need to get out and think. There is too much going on and im drowning in my thoughts and my fears.

Well its 8am and im off to Virginia for a week. Please leave me lots of messages of whats happening up here. Im going to miss everyone. Especially Christopher, I love you. See you all in a week.

Well im leaving tomorrow for Virginia lucky me. A 12 hour some drive with my family. Someone please shoot me. Im leaving for a week then im back for a really busy rest of the month. The week i get back i have home camp monday-thursday. Link crew, Monday:6-10 Tuesday:1-6pm Wednesday:7am-1pm. Then thats same Tuesday i have tryouts sometime between 7:30-9 for zenith brass ensemble. Wednesday is also mine and Christophers 9 month anniversary. I still cant believe its been that long. Wow. Friday is the state fair. My last one. Thank god. Then the week after i go away for camp. I cant wait. Its always so much fun. Anyone want to bunk with me ( wink, wink ). Then the week after is school. Ehh not that bad its my senior year. Im so excited. Cant wait for all the band stuff to start. Im excited to see everyone again.

Yesterday spent the day at Christophers house since its the last day ill be with him, well just me and him before i go on vacation. We went and picked up his senior pictures. They turned out real nice. I want all of them lol. But yea we didnt do much. Just hung out. Today woke up and went to practice. It was hot as hell there. Ken came and picked me and Kristin up cause i had no car. I went home before going back to Kens for his pool party. Saw Mike, Amanda, Mary, Kristin, Ken, Chris, Big Dave, and Lil Dave. We swam and ate pizza. I left then went to lessons. Woohoo. Came back to Kens after being bitched at by my mother who i highly dislike. She says the meaniest things and then a couple of minutes later she is talking to me like things never happened. I HATE THAT!!! I told her that i got a job offering starting in September and she doesnt seem excited at all (i havent been able to find a job so i thought she would of been happier) but hey nothing i do will every please her so screw her. Chris is going to save me one day. He is the only one who gives a shit about me. Went back to Kens and did absoluetly nothing. Woohoo. Friday i leave for vacation. I dont want to go and i get to spend tomorrow packing. Wow lucky me. Dont i live a fasinating life.






I thought your parents were suppose to wipe the tears from your eyes not create them??